have you ever felt like everything around you is on fast foward >>? everything around you is changing/growing/adapting/learning but you're just stuck. and it's this feeling thats full of sorrow. and lonliness. as hard as you try and as fast as you run to try to catch up, you lose yourself. or if you don't run, you fear becoming this horrible fake person. so i suppose i'm feeling all of this; and i'm so scared that if i try to keep up that i won't be myself. and i don't want to become something that i'm not; phony. i guess it helps by just getting away from it all for a while; expectations, society, friends. my henry david thoreau catharsis. for now i'll put my headphones on and rock out to elliott smith. and it helps.